Tired.

Some days are good, some days bad.

I feel tired everyday, but I’ve gotten used to that some time ago anyway. I’ve gotten used to not having enough rest, not enough food, water, and worst of all - not enough time - for anything else except work. I’ve gotten used to the daily rush. Rush to work, rush to finish work, rush to rest, so I’ll get enough juice to rush back to work. On off-days when I’m off-work, when I know I have at least that much time, with limited supply of energy, I’d rush to enjoy myself - usually a whole day of obligatory video game grind so to satisfy my self that there is more to life than just work.

I’ve gotten used to all that.

But today, today I feel tired. Tired of trying to be better. Today I feel like a failure, I feel like walking down a walkway slamming door after door, real hard. Bam. Bam. Bam. I’m not good in anything I do in life. I’m not good with my work. I’m dissapointed with myself. Dang I’m not even good with my hobbies. I’m not good with people, I’m not good to myself. I’m not good with anything. I’m getting nowhere yet I still try to be better.

Some days are good, some days bad.

But some days how I wish i could just have some little encouragement...